Saturday, January 19, 2013

One year anniversary

Today marks the one year anniversary of Colleen's Leukemia diagnosis. Our hearts are over-flowing with thankfulness to our Lord for answering our prayers, giving us the strength to get through the most difficult time of our lives, protecting Colleen and comforting our family. 
     I am awed by God's sovereignty and his work in our lives which helped us to prepare for this trial. I have had numerous nursing jobs over the years in surgery, oncology, hospice, neonatal nursing and home health care. I had knowledge of ever phase of her care which helped alleviate anxiety. I was able to advocate for her when she was having a lot of pain, I knew exactly what needed to be done. Chelsea was also forced to change her major to chemistry education because of a health issue and she was able to tutor Colleen. I also see that having a child 10 years older than Colleen was really beneficial for all of us. There were 3 of us to take turns at the hospital and we made a great team. I knew about the care Colleen needed and Chelsea was able to explain the molecular or cellular changes that occur with leukemia. Many of the physicians would ask her why she did not pursue medicine. Chelsea also chose Wayne State University which is right next door to the medical center so she was able to continue going to school and help with Colleen. We know that the steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord. Sometimes we go through life sort of blindly but we are grateful to our Savior who loves us and directs our steps. 
     We are thankful that Colleen was diagnosed so quickly. Most diagnoses take longer to find. Colleen developed a blister on her thigh which was really painful. She went to her pediatrician who felt it was a viral infection. When the blister was still there 2 days later we were sent to infectious disease doctor at children's. Our pediatrician called that department who had an appointment available that day. I worked in the pediatric office at the time, and getting an appointment was usually a real challenge. She saw the infectious disease doctor that day( who also had leukemia as a 14 year old and now was a 32 year old physician). She ordered blood work which showed a very low white count. We were referred to the hematologist the next day who felt that this was probably a virus. He also felt a bone marrow test could wait 2 weeks. I felt this was too long and wanted the test right away. The next day January 18th 2012, we found out she had leukemia. Treatment began that night at Children's Hospital of Michigan. 
     The goal of treatment is to be in remission within 4 weeks and the quicker a child responds to the chemotherapy, the better their long-term outcome. At the 3 week mark, Len told the doctor that she would be in remission because many were praying for her. She cautioned that this was way too lofty a goal. We were elated to find out that God had once again answered our prayers and she was in remission 1 week early. Tests were run to find out the cytogenetics of the leukemia. When the tests came back, they showed that she had the easiest type of acute lymphoblastic leukemia to treat and it was 90% curable. It seemed at every turn that the Lord was encouraging us and reassuring us that Colleen was going to be fine. 
     Colleen began having debilitating headaches a few weeks into treatment. A reaction to the methotrexate chemotherapy progressed and caused an area of the brain to die causing paralysis on the left side. I remember kneeling on the hospital floor at the foot of her stretcher sobbing and pleading for God to heal her. The paralysis lasted about 14 hours and then the movement returned. God had once again answered our prayers. She was finally well enough to go home about a week later. A few days after coming home, I came home from work for lunch and found her acting really silly and rolling on the floor. I called the doctor who instructed us to bring her to the clinic. Just as  Chelsea arrived to the clinic, Colleen began having seizure like movements and it took 5 nurses to hold her down. A rapid response team or code team was called to the clinic and she was transported to the ER. We are grateful for God's timing and for the fact that this did not occur in the car when Chelsea was alone with Colleen.
    The social worker called me at the clinic and told me that Colleen was not doing well. I was terrified, she would not tell me what was going on. To a nurse this means your child is on a ventilator or dying. I was relieved to find out that it was just a seizure. We found out later that the damage to the brain caused the nerve impulses to the body to be disrupted. We prayed again for God to heal her and within a day, the doctors found a medication to stop the movements. We thank God for giving our doctors the wisdom to care for Colleen since less than 2 percent of children develop the methotrexate toxicity and the head of neurology had only seen this problem in adults and only once in 35 years of medicine. 
     Colleen battled nausea, vomiting, headaches, and severe foot pain but through it all we felt God's never-ending love and comfort. Just before we reached maintenance, Colleen developed a blood infection. We went to the clinic and the doctor on duty was very surprised that this was Colleen's first infection. He actually congratulated our regular doctor. We thank God for keeping Colleen free from viruses and infections during this time of intense chemotherapy. 
     In closing, this year has been tough for Colleen and our family but we are grateful that God was able to use this trial to strengthen our faith and to allow us to demonstrate  his love to others that we would not have met without having this illness.
     Once again we would like to thank each and every one of you who said a prayer, who sent a meal, who cleaned our home, sent a card, who encouraged us in anyway. Your kindness is greatly appreciated and will forever be etched in our hearts. We also praise God who gave us the strength to get through this trial. Please continue to pray that the cancer will stay in remission. 
    Colleen is back in school with her friends, her hair is growing again and her leg pain caused by the steroids is improving and we praise God that the area of the bone that is affected should not cause any long-term damage. I will post some pictures tomorrow of Colleen and our new puppies. 

    
 

Sunday, November 4, 2012

Maintenance at last

Colleen officially entered maintenance last Tuesday. Yippee!!!!! She went back to school on Tuesday and promptly finished 20 assignments online. Go Colleen!!!! She has a spinal with chemotherapy scheduled on Tuesday. Please pray that this will go well and cause minimal  pain. She is on prednisone which is an anti-cancer drug but is causing her to have quite an appetite and is on some other chemotherapy drugs orally. These drugs do not make her as ill as the IV drugs. Her classmates had a welcome back party on Wednesday which really made her day.


 On Halloween, we drove 4 and a half hours each way to pick up our new Boston Terrier Reebok and at 5am the next morning Ryder our other new Boston Terrier arrived with my mom and dad special delivery from Missouri. Reebok is a 5 lb, 9 week old and Ryder is a 2lb 2 oz six week old Boston. Needless to say we are quite busy trying to potty train 2 babies at once. Reebok is really laid back and Ryder is a bossy little spit-fire. I guess he has to be to survive at 2 pounds. Our plan is to train the puppies to be therapy dogs and take them to Children's Hospital regularly to bring some happy moments to kids who are sick. We cannot think of a better way to give back. Colleen really enjoyed the therapy dogs that came to visit. It is amazing how pets can help them forget that they are sick for a short time and help them smile. We are rejoicing because Colleen is once again smiling regularly and genuinely enjoying life. We look forward to seeing God use Colleen for his glory.Thank you for your prayers.

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

So happy Colleenie is home

Praise the Lord!!!!! Colleen came home yesterday at about 6:30 yesterday after having platelets, chemotherapy, and a spinal with chemotherapy. Colleen will enter the maintenance phase of chemotherapy when her white count recovers or baby white blood cells begin reproducing well.(this may be as soon as 2 weeks or as long as 6 weeks) Our last intensive chemotherapy. Colleen was grinning ear to ear yesterday and also today. Her back is a bit sore from the spinal, but overall she is beginning to feel better already. I am giving her antibiotics thru her mediport or Intravenously every 8 hours and she is tolerating this very well. This will continue through Friday. It is wonderful to hear the girls laughing and giggling upstairs as I am updating the blog. We are looking forward to resuming a semi-normal life within a few weeks. Our heart are overflowing with thankfulness to the Lord for everything that he has done this last 9 months. Our family is stronger and closer than ever, our focus is on heavenly treasures and we feel strengthened by his grace. We are  so thankful for the strength that he has given us to help us through this challenging time. Many are amazed at the courage and strength that we are able to display but I always remind them that our heavenly father gives us the strength that we need. Without God's mercy and love we would be hopeless. Instead he has placed a blanket of calm over us throughout this entire ordeal. We felt and still feel your prayers and greatly appreciate them. So thank you again for everything- every card, dinner, word of encouragement etc. They will never be forgotten.     Keep reading picture of Colleen  at bottom of page.                                                                    

Exodus 15:2 The Lord is my strength and my song, and he has become my salvation; this is my God and I will praise Him; My father's God, and I will extol Him. 

James 1 states to consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing. But if any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who given to all men generously and without reproach, and it will be given to him. But let him ask in faith without any doubting, for the one who doubts is like the surf of the sea driven and tossed by the wind. For let not that man expect to receive anything from the Lord... Blessed is a man who perseveres under trial; for once he has been approved, he will receive the crown of life, which the Lord has promised to those who love him.

We are human, we get weary and often lose focus during trials, but we know that our God is molding us into who he wants us to be and we are thankful for the opportunity to share God's love and his message with others.
This is a picture of Colleen yesterday- grinning from ear to ear after being told she was going home!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So happy for her!!!

Saturday, October 13, 2012

Update regarding hospitalization

Colleen was admitted on Monday for a blood infection. She was doing better but developed another fever a few days ago. This postponed her release. The doctors also say that because of the infection, her white blood count must be higher for her to come home. She also developed a fever during a blood transfusion yesterday briefly. I am feeling a bit better. It is amazing what a good nights sleep can do for the soul. We are still weary but feel stronger today. The blood cultures from a few days ago are negative- so no new bacteria. Praise God for answered prayer.  Colleen is understandably disappointed and really wants to come home. Her white count came up from .2 to .3 today but this is not enough to come home. Apparently she would be at risk for readmission from another blood infection is she goes home now. It is a bit hard for me to understand the logic, but i really trust the doctors. It seems like she would me at more risk to develop an infection in the hospital,but they say they are concerned with the normal bacteria in her body causing another blood infection. Please continue to pray that God will help her white count to come up soon so she can come home. Please continue to pray for us as we near the end of the phase of chemotherapy. She should feel better soon. Please also pray that she will be able to catch up on her schoolwork. The online schooling takes around 6 hours per day and everyday she misses, she falls behind by 7 assignments. We just don't know if she is going to make it this semester. She only has until the first part of January to finish all of her schoolwork and this could be a huge challenge. Colleen is a really diligent and self motivated student and is really wanting to do well in school. Thank you for your love, encouragement, and your prayers. We know that our God is faithful and there is a purpose to all of this but we are getting weary. It is so hard to watch your child suffer for so long. Thank you again

 1 Thessalonians 16-18 says Rejoice always, pray without ceasing; in everything give thanks; for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus. 


Good news! Len was able to raise $2500.00 for the leukemia foundations Hollywood movie night. Thank you to each of you who donated. We are currently looking at supporting one or two organizations thru volunteering and fundraising and the girls want to train our dogs to go to be therapy dogs. We also are getting a new puppy in a few weeks. The girls are very excited. Should be interesting to see if our dogs can pass classes to be therapy dogs. We are looking forward to doing our part when Colleen is feeling better. 

Thursday, October 11, 2012

Desperately needing prayer

Colleen was scheduled to go home tomorrow with intravenous antibiotics but has developed another high fever tonight. Discharge will be postponed for 2 days at least. Another set of blood cultures were sent. Please pray that this is nothing serious. I forgot to let you know that Colleen was admitted on Monday with a blood infection, she responded well to the antibiotics but has developed another fever. I did post this on facebook but forgot to write it on the blog sorry. 

This illness has gone on so long- 9 months of chemotherapy, illness, strokes, nausea, etc. We all know that having chemotherapy is challenging but until you have witnessed it first hand, it is just impossible to understand the suffering. It seems like the end of this trial is so near but yet so far. Up until today, I have felt as though everything happens for a reason and God is molding us into the people he wants us to be and giving us more opportunity to spread the gospel. Today, however, I feel as though the devil is just trying to break us down- taunting us with more suffering. Maybe I am just tired, but enough is enough!!!! . This child has suffered more than any child should. We need your fervent, heart-felt prayers to end this trial. We desperately need your prayers to help us to continue to see the blessings in this trial. No child should have to endure such suffering. l. I feel like the devil is trying to drag us down, trying to have us denounce our God and Savior out of sheer exhaustion. This will never happen. We are thankful that we have had so many opportunities to share our faith and God's love with others but enough suffering has taken place. Please, please pray that Colleen will recover quickly, that she will enter maintenance soon, that God will give us the strength that we all need to get us through this trial.

John 11:4 But when Jesus heard it, He said,"This sickness is not unto death, but for the glory of God, that the Son of God may be glorified by it." 

John 11:25 Jesus said to her," I am the resurrection and the life; He who believes in me shall live even if he dies and everyone who lives and believes in me shall never die. Do you believe this?

James 5:13 Is anyone among you suffering? Let him pray. Is anyone cheerful? Let him sing praises. Is anyone among you sick? Let him call for the elders of the church, and let them pray over him, anointing him with oil in the name of the Lord; and the prayer offered in faith will restore the one who is sick, and the Lord will raise him up.

Saturday, October 6, 2012

One more intensive treatment

Colleen has been nauseated off and on this week. She went to the clinic on Friday and received platelets. Her chemotherapy has changed to Tuesdays this phase. Her last scheduled intensive chemotherapy is scheduled for Tuesday. She also has a spinal with chemotherapy scheduled. Please pray that this last treatment will go well, that Colleen will have few side effects such as nausea, and that the cancer will remain in remission. We received a phone call from the mom of a young lady who sponsored a fundraiser for Colleen. She heard about the incident this summer when people were staring at Colleen at the pool, and felt compelled to help. It is simply heartwarming when complete strangers reach out to help. We are so thankful for each and every one of you  who have encouraged us in anyway throughout this trial. It has been so encouraging throughout the last 9 months. So many of you have been such a blessing. I wish I were a more eloquent writer or speaker- I just cannot find the words to express our gratitude.No words seem sufficient to express our thankfulness. Every card, prayer, and word of encouragement is forever etched in our hearts. We will forever be grateful to all of you and our God for giving us the strength to endure this trial. God does not promise us an easy life, but he does promise to walk beside us and help us through. We will forever remember every act of kindness and will continue to love and encourage others who are weathering trials. We are so glad to be reaching maintenance. After tuesday, Colleen's blood counts need to recover and then she will be able to return to school. She will continue to receive occasional spinals, monthly intravenous chemotherapy and sometimes oral chemotherapy for the next 2 full years but she will feel well most of the time and be able to return to a semi-normal life. 

Now that we are anticipating entering maintenance, we have decided to begin the process of giving back. Len is fundraising this week for the childhood leukemia foundation. Please consider donating to this wonderful organization. Colleen has been participating in monthly activities sponsored by this agency and has truly enjoyed them. She is fundraising for the leukemia foundations Hollywood nights. On Friday, she will be able to attend movies with some of her friends. It is a movie marathon at the Emagine theater in Canton. 

Please consider donating to the wonderful organization. If you would like to donate please copy the link below and paste it into the address bar. It will take you to Colleen's site where the fundraiser is explained in detail. 


http://events.leukemiamichigan.org/site/TR/Movie/General?px=1038364&pg=personal&fr_id=1330

Isiah 40:29 God gives strength to the weary and to him who lacks might he increases power. 

Isiah 40: 31 Yet those who wait for the Lord will gain new strength, They will mount up with wings like eagles, They will run and not get tired, They will walk and not become weary. 

1 Thessalonians 5:11 Therefore encourage on another, and build up one another, just as you also are doing. 

Thank you, The Stewart Family

Sunday, September 23, 2012

Smiling

Colleen's pain subsided on Monday. We are so happy that God has( once again) answered our prayers. Colleen is still very weak and does not feel well most days. Yesterday she did have a good day. It was wonderful to see her smiling and giggling again. Just 2 more weeks of intense chemotherapy and then, on to maintenance. We are looking forward to Colleen having mostly good days in the near future. Please continue to pray that the next 2 weeks will go by without any complications, and the this terrible cancer will stay in remission. It has been a challenging 8 1/2 months but we are grateful for many things. Grateful for answered prayers, grateful that we have grown closer as a family, grateful that God has reminded us that  our relationship with him is the most important thing in life. We hope that you too will remember that life is very short and worthless unless we know him as our Savior. Some have asked me what this means. This is a prayer that is said initially confessing to God that we know we are sinners then asking Jesus to come into our heart and lives. We then make a conscious effort to attend church regularly, and live a life( with God's help) that is pleasing to him. We are not perfect or better than anyone else just forgiven by God. Christ died on the cross to pay for our sins, but we must accept this gift and make a conscious effort to live a life which is as Christ-like as possible. It is not enough just to say a prayer once- we must have a personal relationship with him. Thank you again for praying. Colleen has done very well through her intensive chemotherapy and we know that this is because so many of you have been praying regularly. Our God is AWESOME!

Matthew 6:19-22 Do not lay up for yourselves treasures upon the earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroy, and where thieves do not break in or steal; for where your treasure is , there will your heart be also. 

Matthew 7:13 to 23   Enter by the narrow gate: for the gate is wide, and the way is broad that leads to destruction, and many are those who enter it. For the gate is small, and the way is narrow that leads to life, and few are those who find it. Not everyone who says to me,Lord, Lord, will enter the kingdom of heaven; but he who does the will of My Father who is in heaven. Many will say to me, Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in Your name, and in your name cast out demons, and in Your name perform many miracles? And then I will declare to them," I never knew you; depart from Me, you who practice lawlessness. 

It is our greatest desire that many will hear God's word and accept him as their savior. This entire illness would be worth it all if just one person comes to know Christ and enters the gates of heaven to worship God forever with us in heaven.